Meaning of LOVE

When i talk about love, so what are the words that appear on your mind? Unlimited, sacrifice, freedom, sincere, selfless, caring... in my point of view LOVE is happy and easy. But now it make me hazy!

Last week, be taken by surprise i have accept a phone call from my senior. it been long time i didn't contact with him. I wonder why he call me and i guess maybe he need my help. so i say: hey guy, long time didn't hear from you. How are you? he answer: i not fine! i just broke up with girlfriend. from beginning i thought he just pulling my leg, after that he start crying and it really give me a shock.

It been one month left, he broke up with his girlfriend and he love her very much so until now he still keep doing something to save their five year relationship. Wretch! nothing i can help, what i can do is just let him to express his feeling. Both of them have been together and love each other since he was twenty. Do you believe interaction between two lover? he told me, he can feel his girlfriend especially when she fall sick or in dangerous. Wow! unbelievable. I thought this only will happen on love fiction. What a pity, five year relationship can't fight with ideal and freedom. His over caring make his girlfriend disgusted with what he had said, so misunderstanding occur between them and at the end the situation force his girlfriend to end up with him. In his case, he didn't betray his girlfriend and it go same with his girlfriend too. But why his girlfriend still keep him a thousand miles away. It is she forget the love that they have share, or she just wanna give him some time-test!

Once again i realize that love is selfish, misunderstanding, obstinate. I believe if both of them still love each other, they have to overcome the obstacle. I hope my senior really understand the meaning of love is freedom and love is believe. By the way, i pray for his girlfriend hope one day she will realize meaning of love is caring and love is to show understanding.

I just a spectator, i can see how hard he try to rescue his "crack relationship". From his action, i can feel his seriousness and "Heart" work. I don't know how long he can hold on, his girlfriend reaction will kill his confident and his "Heart" to love. Love is to bring happiness not to bring sadness! i really don't want to see my friend get hurt anymore, but at the same time i hope they will be no regret between both of them. so i tell him: if you heart still love her, then keep chasing her. No matter what happen at the end as long as you have try your best, then you will no regret! i as your friend will always support and be proud of you.

His spirit is admirable and touching. The friend that i know is a good man, if his girlfriend still love him please give him some hint. So he can love you until his end of life!

sLap mE

After i finish my six month industry training in Alor Star, what i thinking about is going back Muar to take a rest before i go for another one month intensive course (CIBEC Programme) in Taiping. Wow... so relax! Now already one month i just sitting at home. There are many of my friends have start enjoy their working life. I'm one of the minority that still under group which i call JLS(Jobless). haha

I feel lazy to do everything, even go helping my mom at shop (Badminton Court Cafe). maybe it just one of my reason to hide from those gossip people. Haiz... really disgusting! i still remember the experience that i get from my working life at my mom's shop. There are a lot of people that keep given me pressure, this is one of the conversation between me and one customer. Mr Goh: hey girl u finish study le? then i answer: ya, just finish practical, waiting my convocation. Mr Goh: So get the job? when you start working? then i say: haven get job, want to relax first. Mr Goh: hah! u still unemployed a? oh ya financial crisis, never mine la! u still have your mom. if you can't find the job, you can help your mom...blar blar blar . oh my god, this is not mean concern it is satire! you can find out after a week, i almost lose all confident and feel stress when going to my mom's shop. so at the end, i discuss with my mom and hope she can let me stay at home, and i promise her i won't just sit at home and do nothing. so i become a housekeeper!

Maybe you will surprise, what actually i doing at home after finish my housework. stare blankly at home? yep, sometime. but most of time i will get myself some work. i preparing my resume and sort out my university project for interview use. In once coincidence, i get my first part time job which is helping one beauty parlor to create a friendster profile. yep...very simple job what i need to do is just create a new profile for the company, edit and upload the picture and add friendster background..so yippy i get another income!

Sometime i really don't know who am i, and feel mentally ballast! i never had that kind of feeling before. it is because the time for me to move to another stage? what should i do, to get rid of this feeling? can somebody tell me? i think i need someone to slap my face, so i can keep a clear head.