my Young Brother (Roni)

What are the first impression of this guy for you? normal & simple just like you & me, gamer, badminton player... this is my brother Roni. Don't be misunderstand, he is just acting to be a good guy. he is now doing his Moral assignment! so i now become his temporary camera men...

In reality, he won't do the housework voluntarily. he always say don't expect me will do the housework for you! i just finish playing badminton & blar blar blar. Play badminton always become his reason to escape from doing housework, sometime i also no mood to ask him. Haiz...

my old lady

Fifty year ago, what kind of old lady i am? A kindly and friendly old lady or a narrow-minded old woman. Oh, i really not dare to figure it. Maybe you will wonder why i got that idea. I would like to tell you a real story that happen to my (maternal) grandmother.

She is ninety four year old and she treat people very well, especially my family member. She is a backbiter, i know this is just a normal respond from an old people or even young people. But most of the time, what she tell me is just her guesswork and nothing to proved. It been ten years i become her great supporter. Oh my…every time i go visit her, sure she will say: Gie, your uncle and his family member are greedy person, they stole my water bucket and bowls. I will answer: is it truth? You got saw them stole your bucket? Then she will say: no, but i know it must be his's work!

That is the person that my grandma hates the most and he is my grandma’s neighborhood too. I don’t know what exactly happen to them, but i firmly believe that this is a misunderstanding. Last year, i try to prove it by experiment, what i going to do is to hide the bucket in a place and sit quietly, so when my grandma realizes that it was gone. She shouts: my bucket has been stole! It must be your uncle and untie! I answer: maybe we should go find first, it could be in other place! She acts like a child and say: we no need to find, it must be him! Oh my god…what’s a stubborn old lady! I’m tired to ague with her, i go and get the bucket back and then she dumb as a fish.

Start from that day, i don’t believe every complaints that she had make. I know i can’t judge her like that, it is not totally her fault. I still don’t believe that she is a stingy person, maybe it is one of the way she get concern and communicate with other. So when every time i visit her, i just listen quietly and try not to ague with her.

I know she is a very strong woman she can even cook and wash cloths. But sometime, i still worry about her especially after she finishes meal and raining day. My mom got ask her to stay with us but she refuse, because she worry about her son. So i take the responsibility to bring her to traditional medical centre, i know it won’t have any good medicine that can really cure her and i realize that this is one of the stages that every human must go through before come to the end of their life.

Stupid girl

Yippy! MSSD Muar finally come to the end. This few days was MSSD Muar Johor 2009, and my mom’s shop was seriously short of hand. So i come back again! It been long time i didn’t watch MSSD game. To tell the truth, this year i quite disappointed with the game. Man single under 18? What are the perceptions that give to you? The game suppose to let those player who not over age of 18 to involve in the game, but today i saw a player who overage can play man single under 18. Oh my god!

MSSD game really calls forth my past recollections. It was a nightmare for me…what i want to comment is badminton has now been politicized. Maybe you will say it just a sport game! But what i going to tell you is, IT'S NOT JUST A SPORT GAME. In reality, you got the strength not mean that you can control, but if you can control money then you will be the winner! You get what I mean? This is what i see from the reality, there are some people that have money but not actually got the talent can join BAM. Believe or not!

Today i have done a stupid thing! I follow my father instruction to protest the player who overage but still plays under 18. I really don’t want to see him disappointed, so i put down all my reason and go protest the player. For sure i got discuss with my father, but he got his own view. So at the end, i decide to fulfill his wish! I know it will make me disgraced in front of people but what actually out of my prediction is this disgusting fat and short old man’s reaction. I almost crazy in front of him, this old man want to challenge me! This is the first time i think i didn’t get respect by other. I know all of them are busy with the game so i speak politely: Selamat Pagi! Saya ah kak Roni saya nak protest Nor Ahmal... But without finish my words, the disgusting old men interpose and speak rudely to me: you ingat you siapa? Siapa kata you boleh protest player! Pengarah sekolah sahaja boleh protest player. You tak ada hak untuk protest player! I almost lose my temper, what the hell it is! I hate arrogant old man and then i answer: I’m Roni’s sister, is it i got the right to know what is going on? after that, he shut up his mouth and asks other teacher to answer my question. They just treat me like crazy women, it make me feel angry! The teacher says: this is the upper head decision, and we just follow the rules of MSSD. After that i explain to dad, but he still don’t want to give up and ask me to give pressure to the teacher, so i follow and finally i get the phone number of pengarah MSSD Johor. But the answer still the same, i can’t protest the player! Haiz…that why i say i done a stupid thing!

I feel sad not because i scold by that disgusting old man, but because of my father. He didn’t show his concern and at the same time still force me to do anything that i don’t like. Heart break! Anyway i still love my father, i think next time i won’t be the stupid girl again.

Meaning of LOVE

When i talk about love, so what are the words that appear on your mind? Unlimited, sacrifice, freedom, sincere, selfless, caring... in my point of view LOVE is happy and easy. But now it make me hazy!

Last week, be taken by surprise i have accept a phone call from my senior. it been long time i didn't contact with him. I wonder why he call me and i guess maybe he need my help. so i say: hey guy, long time didn't hear from you. How are you? he answer: i not fine! i just broke up with girlfriend. from beginning i thought he just pulling my leg, after that he start crying and it really give me a shock.

It been one month left, he broke up with his girlfriend and he love her very much so until now he still keep doing something to save their five year relationship. Wretch! nothing i can help, what i can do is just let him to express his feeling. Both of them have been together and love each other since he was twenty. Do you believe interaction between two lover? he told me, he can feel his girlfriend especially when she fall sick or in dangerous. Wow! unbelievable. I thought this only will happen on love fiction. What a pity, five year relationship can't fight with ideal and freedom. His over caring make his girlfriend disgusted with what he had said, so misunderstanding occur between them and at the end the situation force his girlfriend to end up with him. In his case, he didn't betray his girlfriend and it go same with his girlfriend too. But why his girlfriend still keep him a thousand miles away. It is she forget the love that they have share, or she just wanna give him some time-test!

Once again i realize that love is selfish, misunderstanding, obstinate. I believe if both of them still love each other, they have to overcome the obstacle. I hope my senior really understand the meaning of love is freedom and love is believe. By the way, i pray for his girlfriend hope one day she will realize meaning of love is caring and love is to show understanding.

I just a spectator, i can see how hard he try to rescue his "crack relationship". From his action, i can feel his seriousness and "Heart" work. I don't know how long he can hold on, his girlfriend reaction will kill his confident and his "Heart" to love. Love is to bring happiness not to bring sadness! i really don't want to see my friend get hurt anymore, but at the same time i hope they will be no regret between both of them. so i tell him: if you heart still love her, then keep chasing her. No matter what happen at the end as long as you have try your best, then you will no regret! i as your friend will always support and be proud of you.

His spirit is admirable and touching. The friend that i know is a good man, if his girlfriend still love him please give him some hint. So he can love you until his end of life!

sLap mE

After i finish my six month industry training in Alor Star, what i thinking about is going back Muar to take a rest before i go for another one month intensive course (CIBEC Programme) in Taiping. Wow... so relax! Now already one month i just sitting at home. There are many of my friends have start enjoy their working life. I'm one of the minority that still under group which i call JLS(Jobless). haha

I feel lazy to do everything, even go helping my mom at shop (Badminton Court Cafe). maybe it just one of my reason to hide from those gossip people. Haiz... really disgusting! i still remember the experience that i get from my working life at my mom's shop. There are a lot of people that keep given me pressure, this is one of the conversation between me and one customer. Mr Goh: hey girl u finish study le? then i answer: ya, just finish practical, waiting my convocation. Mr Goh: So get the job? when you start working? then i say: haven get job, want to relax first. Mr Goh: hah! u still unemployed a? oh ya financial crisis, never mine la! u still have your mom. if you can't find the job, you can help your mom...blar blar blar . oh my god, this is not mean concern it is satire! you can find out after a week, i almost lose all confident and feel stress when going to my mom's shop. so at the end, i discuss with my mom and hope she can let me stay at home, and i promise her i won't just sit at home and do nothing. so i become a housekeeper!

Maybe you will surprise, what actually i doing at home after finish my housework. stare blankly at home? yep, sometime. but most of time i will get myself some work. i preparing my resume and sort out my university project for interview use. In once coincidence, i get my first part time job which is helping one beauty parlor to create a friendster profile. yep...very simple job what i need to do is just create a new profile for the company, edit and upload the picture and add friendster background..so yippy i get another income!

Sometime i really don't know who am i, and feel mentally ballast! i never had that kind of feeling before. it is because the time for me to move to another stage? what should i do, to get rid of this feeling? can somebody tell me? i think i need someone to slap my face, so i can keep a clear head.